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| long depression post, skip it if u hate to listen to problems... |
| Wednesday, April 15, 2009 |
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something happened yesterday
tks to HS, I manage to let it out to someone,
& BK too... haha happen to call so...
sorry... have to let u listen to my troubles again...
well... just one question,
"how would u feel if u see ur toddler outside holding this thing swinging around?"  fyi, if u cannot see from the photo wat is it...
(i dunno wtf it is also...)
its something like a giant fork,
big & rusty enough to poke untill u bleed. I tried to let my darling be closer to u all,
by letting her go out n play with u,
but y issit so difficult for u to help me look after her for just 3mins?
just 3mins when I was washing her milk bottle,
u played with her for 1 min,
then when she wonder off to ur son's room or kitchen,
u bo chap her let her roam herself,
despite ur son telling u to keep all the dangerous stuffs out of reach from ur granddaughter,
u ignore or rather bo chap,
if i knw i would keep it.
1st is a box of needles she took out from tt drawer,
u saw it & knew it was needles but u ignored,
I was the one who put in another place but u put back into the same place
knowing she always open tt particular drawer,
2nd, razor from tt same drawer,
3rd time, those pin for pinboard in ur son's room,
luckily I spotted it b4 my darling pick it up,
4th, a very tiny piece of metal thingie my darling almost put in her mouth in ur son's room,
& now this big forky thingie...
Y issit when she walk towards u then u entertain her then she walk away u bo chap her,
its just 3mins not 3hrs...
If i dun let her go out, u all complain,
now i always let her go out play then like this,
if anything happen who will u all blame?
me?
& so now i dun let her go out unless she is within my sight,
but U come back home without washing ur feet & bathing just come into my room & carry her out, & u knw how particular I am abt my darling's environment
esp. the place where she rests,
I admit im not so hygene freak b4,
but y am I like tt now?
imagine ur baby PD everytime when see u tell u must be clean cause ur daughter is diff. from other baby,
& after seeing wat my daughter went thru,
tt is y i am wat i am today,
& how do u call ur grand daughter?
u didnt knw her name? even though u asks us for abt 3times b4?
english name u dunno? ok hw abt chinese name?
still cant remember? thought u call her "ah mei" b4?
y u nvr call her tt?
y u wana call her by saying "zkzkzk" like how u call my dog?
r u trying to treat ur grand daughter like hw u treat a dog?
Ok even after all these things,
I still keep quiet cause I knw I have to respect you,
but y last night for nothing u wana say so loud bad things abt me?
wana purposely let me hear?
"tt charbo think she very smart, stay here do nothing!"
tks ne, will remember wat u say abt me,
u say me like this just because u not happy to see me wiping my room floor after u walked in?
sorry ne but i place my darling before u,
even if u dun wana maintain a clean environment outside,
I have to maintain my own on my side,
& i can tell u straight in ur face, I Dun Wan to stay in ur or rather the house ur wife has been slogging away paying by herself,
& hello~~~!
fyi, i would wipe ur living room & kitchen every morning,
tts the reason y ur elder son asks u all to wash ur feet when u all reach home
cause U wana let ur grand daughter go out play,
but u purposely ignore & obviously doesnt appreciate,
u even bring ur shoes & wear in the middle of the living room,
leaving ur living room to have those sands/ mud bits & those black black spots,
is protesting more important or ur grand daughter's health more important?
do u knw ur grand daughter vomited b4 all those dirty things out cause she went outside
& u all ignore her after playing with her for 1min
& she go suck her fingers tts y she vomited out?
I tried not to be 自闭 but u force me to be like tt again tks to wat u say how u think of me loudly enough to let me hear,
Oh & fyi again, the reason Y i was 自闭 in the first place,
if u could remember, after i give birth I never close my room door one cause I Thought u all would wana come in to see ur grand daughter (tt time i was still not a hygene freak yet hah!)
but U only came in Once & the second time?
was when u were sort of forcing me to lend u 1k? asks me to pawn off my wedding gold?
& i was having post natal depression at tt time?
& ya the ah long incident? u totally scare me off & made me become 自闭
locking myself & my darling in room,
only to go out when i needed to go to loo or wash milk bottles.
& now thanks to U again,
I am back to my 自闭 self again locking us up,
or even better now,
i decided to go out & hang around nearby until i knw
i woudnt see ur face or rather let u see my face then i come back home,
happy? or u wan me to carry ur granddaughter to jump down then once & for all,
u would not need to face us anymore? nothing for u to say anymore?
but well, my friend told me the last decision is not wise cause it is not worth to end my life for a person like you after wat my darling has braved thru,
true~
(if u think im abit mad after seeing wat i wrote b4... I admit maybe i still have abit of depression, who wont? staying in room with no one to talk to 24hrs?)
& do u knw Y i choose to buy Punggol hse in the 1st place?
cause I thought my hubby r close to u all like how I luv my family,
& i put him above myself cause he is the eldest son,
but i regreted it cause it doesnt seem tt way,
even ur son can tell me he never ever felt being loved by u all,
Once i have my house keys, i can no need renovate one, just buy those neccesities
move in can liao, happy?
I wan to work Now but wat abt ur granddaughter?
her PD told me to let her go skool when she have finish all her injections @ 2yrs old,
& of course i also feel it is wiser for her to build up her immune system 1st b4 going to skool,
(anyway im looking for one now 1st)
I am ur son's wife, not just any other "charbo" like wat u say
& maybe one more time if i hear u calling my daughter using "zekzekzek" again,
i will ask u straight in ur face,
"u think she dog?"
I respected u, keep quiet bc u r my hubby f,
u make me lose trust on u b4,
just when I thought we could be a happy family again,
u did this again,
i knw everyone has been telling me I can only "ren"
& ya the only way for me to ren is not to see ur face,
since u do not know how to respect me & my daughter,
I see no reason y I still have to tolerate ur nonsense & lies,
Bye man~ |
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| (Elicia Kim) ♥ 4/15/2009 10:29:00 PM |
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