Woke up today & found darling in a diff position on her bed... ... cutez ^^
Not much today... very sianz actually cause I have been staying at home for 1wk ++ liaoz... really moulding liao, somemore no car, wan to go out also cannot... haiz... and staying at in this house really sucks...if no baby at home they like this forget it but we Have a baby at home Duhz.... i have been tolerating for almost 5mths, i think one day i may just lose control, go out to the living rm & scream at all of them outside... the bro.. the mum... wa laoz... really feel like screaming directly at their face "will you all just be more gentle with everything & stop talking at the top of ur lungs!!!
I really feel very "fan" again these few days, really feel like going to a world where only me & my family are and nobody can come n bother us. I thought my depression have gone... but think these few days, it started again... thinking abt alot of things then cry & cry & feels that everything was my fault... am really really tired.
Had just started a thread in SG Motherhood
"!!!♥ Support Group For Open-Heart Surgery Babies' Parents ♥!!! " http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/messages/5/1288428.html?1205049706 but i think it might not have not have any responses... cause its the 51st..............thread...... see... .... so be...low... who can see... haiz... have written this in the post:
Hi All, Just wondering has anyone set up this group yet? If not, perhaps we can have one as I truly understands the feel of loss one mother have when their baby needs to undergo an Open-Heart♥ Surgery. And I hope in this group, we can help advice & encourage one another. I can really understand lor... esp... the mother will have thoughts like "issit my fault that my baby is having this problem? issit the food i ate during pregnancy? etc... the stress they will have, nobody will truly understands what the mother is thinking thru in their deepest heart... Really hope that someday this thread will be of use... ... -_____- |